Grade VI-Diamond Reunion

the girls of VI-Diamond

Eddie, Dazz, Claire, Joan and me

kampai!!!

just the 8 of us

Eddie, me, Mike, Joan, Claire, Dazz, August and Onon

Missing my Bestfriend..

i miss so many things

about the way it used to be

we both have made mistakes

not "just" you or not "just" me

i miss all of the good times

like when we'd talk all night long

or when we'd belt out the lyrics

to an old barney song

i miss when we'd talk

for hours on end

but i think most of all

i just miss my best friend

Reunion or Pool Party

What: NES Grade VI-Diamond Reunion

When: October 30, 2010

Where: Pier One, Timog Ave

Who: Grade VI-Diamond students batch 94

VS

What: Capital One SBBS 3rd anniversary party

When: October 30, 2010

Where: Casanjo resort, Cainta, Rizal

Who: SBBS Ops and Agents

San ako pupunta?

Dear Diary #9: Tago

Dear Diary,

Gusto kong magtago...

Gusto kong magtago against hurt, pain, sadness, cruelty, selfishness, loneliness, at kung ano-ano pang negative emotions na meron ako sa katawan, sa katawan ng mga taong nakapalibot sa akin at sa mga bagay sa paligid ko.

Ayoko magpakita at ayoko sila makita.

Much as I would like to try flipping every negative side of things, feeling ko I'm so helpless.. Kasi ako lang mag-isa ang lalaban sa nararamdaman ko, walang ibang pwedeng tumulong sa akin, kung meron man, I don't think they can handle the situation nor even have the slightest idea kung ano talaga ang nangyayari sa akin.

Naiinis ako.. Naiiyak.. Nanginginig.. Nanggagalaiti.. Aaarrrggghhh.. x(

Ano ba? Tataguan ko ba ito o haharapin ko ng bonggang-bongga?

Nakakatakot..

Masarap magtago. Mejo magiging at ease ako. Yun nga lang, not for long. Wala din akong ie-exert na effort. Pero hindi titigil ang issue. Baka nga lumala pa.

Harapin ko kaya? Pero paano? Akala ko matapang ako pero hindi pala.. May mga pagkakataon siguro na matapang ako pero mas nananaig pa din ung kaduwagan ko. Ang galing ko mag-advice pero sarili ko di ko maayos.

Life is so ironic..

I can't think of any possible solution for now. Siguro, the best that I could do is to observe the peeps and the things around me. Observe how would I act and react to the situation. Makibagay siguro sa daloy ng panahon. At wag paandarin ang kamalditahan. Wag magmatigas. Siguro, pag tinuloy-tuloy ko yun, makikita ko din yung solution. At malamang baka hindi ko na naisin na magtago pa. Sugod na lang ng sugod, harapin ang bawat problema ng nakangiti at positibo.

Kaya ko ba 'to?

Kakayanin.. :)

Aja..

Angel

Tropang Quezon aka Chuperfriends

me and apple

david

me and karen

apple and karen

karen and nina

karen and marq

1st set of tres marias

2nd set of tres marias

the girls

the group with the road manager, nej

Dear Diary #8: I'm a Busybee

Dear Diary,

Kelan pa ba kita huling in-update? Di ko na maalala.. Sa sobrang ka-busyhan ko sa work, sa lalake, sa kaibigan at sa bago kong laruan.. Pasensya na.. :(

Wala naman talaga ako balak mag-blog ngaun. Wala akong maisip na topic. Kung meron man, puro kasawian sa buhay. Gusto ko lang may mailagay kahit papaano sa blog.

Ano ba? Ayoko magkwento ng something personal. Akin na lang muna yun. Mahirap na. Very public ang blog ko. Ma-misinterpret pa. Sad.

Kung may nais man akong isulat na mejo sensitive ang topic, andyan naman si itouch ko. Sya na ang bago kong bestfriend, bago kong pagbubuhusan ng sama ng loob at katuwaan. Very private sya kasi di mo mababasa un. Password protected. Astig. Lahat ng naganap at naramdaman ko sa isang araw bukod tanging sya lang ang nakakaalam.

Hay..

Nakakapagod na din kasi magtype at paganahin ang imahinasyon. Pero feeling ko kasi madami akong gustong i-blog, wala lang ako sa mood. Kung pwedeng basahin na lang yung isip ko at isalin sa blog, ayos! Wala na sanang problema. Saka di ako ganun ka-creative sa paggawa ng blog unlike yung mga blog friends ko. Mga gifted sila, ako trying hard.

Yun lang. Tinatamad na ko mag-isip. Saka na ulit. Maganda siguro gumawa ako ng rough draft ng mga naiisip kong i-blog para ico-copy ko na lang sa blog, wala ng effort mag-isip.

Angel

Ipod touch

Ipod touch 2nd generation 16gb

thanks to tipidpc member: Reese

this is my reward/pre-birthday gift/christmas gift to myself..

it's all worth the wait!

Facial

Patagal ng patagal, paganda ng paganda.. Wow.. Yan ang motto namin ni bff, Marq..

Ang plano: magpa-facial..

..kasi feeling namin tadtad na ng alikabok at polusyon ang mukha namin. Feeling namin pwede ng taniman ng kamote sa sobrang kapal ng dumi. Araw-araw ba naman bumibiyahe sakay ng killer bus, fx o mrt. Isang roll ng tissue kulang pa pamunas sa mukhang madumi. Yikes!

This is already our second time na magpa-facial. Yung unang experience, scary! Nung unang sabak namin sa facial, halos parang binanad sa merthiolate ang mukha namin sa sobrang pamamaga. Nakakahiya maglakad sa kahabaan ng Cubao. Salamat na lang may shades ako, naitago ko ang identity ko. At ngayon habang papalapit na kami sa facial center (itago natin sa pangalang Let's Face It), nai-imagine na namin kung anong klaseng torture ang mararanasan namin sa kamay nila ate.

So, ayan na, tinawag na ang name namin ni ate, time to wash our faces with liquid soap (1 beses) and bar soap (3 beses) with matching hair cap at bib para di mabasa ang damit. Pahihigain kami ni ate at uumpisahang imasahe ang mukha, para marelax. Papahiran ng kemikal at ibababad sa steam. Iiwanan ka ni ate ng mga humigit kumulang 20 minuto at makikipag-chikahan muna sya sa isang ate. Pagbalik ni ate, pupunasan na ang mukha at umpisa na ng kalbaryo. Prick dito, prick doon. Walang pakialam si ate kung may luha mang umaagos sa aming mga mata dahil sa sobrang sakit. Busy sya kakabutas sa mukha namin. Ouchy!

Papahiran ulit ng kemikal na syang magpapaganda sa amin. At voila! Itataboy na kami ni ate kasi tapos na ang session namin. Bibilinan kang wag basain ang mukha buong magdamag. Maglalambing na sana sa pagbalik mo sya ulit ang makaulayaw mo pero ang totoo umaasam lang ng tip yun. Dahil sa sinaktan nya ang mga mukha namin at walang awang ni-prick, next time na lang. Sana sa susunod hindi na torture. Wala ba kasing painless na facial?

Bayaran na daw.. swipe!

Feeling namin, kumapal ng 3 pulgada ang mukha namin at namamaga pa. Ang solusyon: magsuot ulit ng shades para ikubli ang mukhang nilapastangan. Isang araw muna ang palilipasin bago pwedeng basain ang mukha. At presto! Masisilayan mo na ang kagandahan mo.

In fairness naman, sa 2 ulit namin na pagpa-facial ni bff, bumuti naman ang hilatsa ng mukha namin. Gumanda, kuminis, nawala ang mga dreaded pimples at nagmukhang gawa sa porselana ang aming mga balat.

Ang lesson sa experience na 'to: No pain, No gain..

Do You Like Me?

marco IV manabat: ok ganito nma lang

marco IV manabat: wag na natin siya pagusapan

marco IV manabat: may itatanong ako sau

marco IV manabat: hiya ako eh

marco IV manabat: do you like me?

angel_matocinos: seriously?

marco IV manabat: yup

angel_matocinos: why ask first?

angel_matocinos: akit mo natanong muna?

marco IV manabat: come on answer me first

angel_matocinos: ikaw muna

angel_matocinos: then elaboatye

angel_matocinos: elaborate

marco IV manabat: ok ok ok

marco IV manabat: im happy talking with you

angel_matocinos: that's it?

marco IV manabat: i cant explain

marco IV manabat: i dont know what im always wanted to talk with you

marco IV manabat: why pala

angel_matocinos: why would i like someone who cant explain or express himself?

marco IV manabat: gel this is me

angel_matocinos: what's in it to you kung like kita o hindi?

marco IV manabat: kasi i like having conversation with you

marco IV manabat: di ko lam kung bakit

marco IV manabat: ewan ko

marco IV manabat: basta

angel_matocinos: bka nadadala k lng ng emotion mo?

marco IV manabat: di naman

marco IV manabat: im happy lang

marco IV manabat: im just asking you

angel_matocinos: asking me what?

marco IV manabat: as time goes by malalaman natin ang totoo

marco IV manabat: if you like me

angel_matocinos: what abt u?

marco IV manabat: i said im happy

marco IV manabat: that will start

angel_matocinos: so what do u wanna hear from me?

marco IV manabat: ok ok

marco IV manabat: if ever that i will ask you again

marco IV manabat: do you like me? my personality

marco IV manabat: being me

angel_matocinos: honestly, i can sense ur a gud guy. based from what uv shared, i know ur not just making stories.

angel_matocinos: i apprec8 the fact na nagoopne ka

angel_matocinos: *open

angel_matocinos: which is so rare

angel_matocinos: for guys

marco IV manabat: kasi gel pinipili ko pinagkakatiwalaan ko

angel_matocinos: thanks for tructing in me

angel_matocinos: trusting

marco IV manabat: and i know from you that you can be trusted

angel_matocinos: take my word for it

angel_matocinos: hmm..

marco IV manabat: kaya nga sabi ko sau di ba its between you and me kung anu man naopen ko sau

angel_matocinos: u need to know the answer n b?

angel_matocinos: i know

angel_matocinos: and i apprec8 it

marco IV manabat: yes i need to know

angel_matocinos: i know it's kinda early but i wud say yes..

marco IV manabat: really?

angel_matocinos: any doubts?

marco IV manabat: no

marco IV manabat: coz i can sense too that you are a nice girl

marco IV manabat: that's why i entrusted you my story

angel_matocinos: and i am expecting that i cud also do that to u.. trust u

marco IV manabat: yes you can count on me

marco IV manabat: anything from you

marco IV manabat: maski di tau naging maxadong magkaibigan noon alam ko mapagkakatiwalaan ka

angel_matocinos: i dont wanna give out expectations.. u must know by now what to do

marco IV manabat: opo madam

angel_matocinos: madam k jan..

marco IV manabat: madam angelica

angel_matocinos: stop it

angel_matocinos: nope

marco IV manabat: im happy spending time with you

angel_matocinos: amidst the great distance..

angel_matocinos: that;s what i fear the most

angel_matocinos: honestly, im not ok sa long distance afair.. dami kasi pwede mangyari..

angel_matocinos: but it all boils down kung gindi sisirain ng tao ung tiwala mo kahit

angel_matocinos: malayo

angel_matocinos: *hindi

angel_matocinos: scary

angel_matocinos: go

marco IV manabat: gel first of all i wanna tell you this,

marco IV manabat: we don't need to fall easily

marco IV manabat: i just want us to be stay as good friends for a while

marco IV manabat: then later on when i got home

marco IV manabat: then we will see what we have to do

marco IV manabat: even me i dont want to have long distance affair too

marco IV manabat: based on my experiences before

marco IV manabat: nothing happens good in the end

marco IV manabat: it all fell into failures and break ups

marco IV manabat: what's best to start is to have a formal and personal affair

angel_matocinos: well said..

angel_matocinos: tama na

marco IV manabat: you make me smile gel

angel_matocinos: my pleasure!

marco IV manabat: i like to see your eyes

angel_matocinos: nakikita mo n db?

marco IV manabat: oo

angel_matocinos: pa-cute k n nman

angel_matocinos: i know

marco IV manabat: sayang nho di tau nagkaroon ng chance noon na magkakilala ng mabuti

angel_matocinos: oo nga

Katy Perry - Hot N Cold

This song reminds me a lot of things..

First, i set it as my message tone.. and is still my message tone! no plans of changing it!

Second, i dedicate this song to my ex, sooo bagay for him.. fickle-minded guy!

Third, most popular song sa rpm session namin ni bff marq.. ginaganahan talaga ako mag-pedal pag yan na ang tugtog.. todo yugyog!

HOT N COLD ... Katy Perry

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you change your mind like a girl I would know
And you always think, always speak cryptically
I should know that you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
You're black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing, now you're plain boring
I should know that you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
You're black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love disorder
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
You're black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Dear Diary #7: My new friend Macky

Dear Diary,

I'm happy.

I'm inspired.

Thanks to Macky. A classmate & friend back in college.

Thanks to FB, we've just found each other. Renewed our friendship. Shared our thoughts on things. Even life experiences.

I just can't believed I've had a conversation with this guy for almost 5 hours thru YM voice chat. At the same time, we're also chatting using messenger. Multi-tasking 'to!

Plus, he did call me on my mobile phone right after he asked for my number. Though it only lasted for 2 mins. I really appreciate his effort.

Our conversation started from way back college years - old & common friends - work - family - embarrassing moments - plans and ambitions - personal issues on life and love..

Even though the line got disconnected a lot of times and with issues on headset and mic set up, it didn't stop us. No dead air. Thoughts simply popped out from our minds and a conversation would start.

I don't wanna give a different meaning on what we've had. My intention was to help him moved on from a failed relationship, just like what I've recently experienced. And I really feel for him. So why not share what I've just learned from it, maybe it might also help him.

I can sensed he's a good man. He's so kind, so loving, a good son. Though he had lots of not so good experiences, I can feel his willingness to change. And that taught him much on how to struggle against life's challenges.

On the not so brighter side, I can also sensed his deep longing for love, care and attention. He came from a broken family and that made him feel scared that he might end up the same thing with his own family. He has never moved on yet from his past relationship. I know that he needed to vent it out but no one's available to hear his side. He's suppressing the pain, and I advised him to let it all out. So he could have peace of mind. I reminded him of flipping every negative side of things. To be positive and always believe in himself.

The turn out of our conversation left me mixed up. Should I be inspired, stay calm, or be proud? I don't know.. But one thing's for sure.. I feel like a teenager.. with the kilig factor! :)

I'm positive that we would be able to continue and maintain this friendship amidst the long distance. There's chat, mobile phone, facebook and email that would fuel our communication. I'm willing to take the risk for this new found friend of mine. I like talking to him, I like to hear more from him.

Clue?

marco IV manabat: i hope you will keep in touch

angel_matocinos: i will..

marco IV manabat: paguwi ko malalaman natin kung bakit tau pinaglapit

marco IV manabat: yan masasabi ko

angel_matocinos: hmm.. oo nga.. leaves me wondering why..

marco IV manabat: gusto mo ba ng clue from me?

angel_matocinos: yup

marco IV manabat: atin atin lang ito ha between you and me but i mean it mabilis ako madevelop un lang masasabi ko

marco IV manabat: its on you on how you will understand

angel_matocinos: elaborate more pls

marco IV manabat: i dont know angel

marco IV manabat: but i think baka hanap hanapin kita

angel_matocinos: wala namang problema saken eh.. u need help, i will help u..

marco IV manabat: not just help

marco IV manabat: i already gave you the clue right

marco IV manabat: un ang weakness ko

angel_matocinos: i maybe have na idea but id rather keep it.. id like ti hear it from u.. baka mamisinterpret ako

marco IV manabat: gusto mo ba marinig?

angel_matocinos: baka mabasa...

marco IV manabat: aba nabawian mo ako ah

angel_matocinos: haha

angel_matocinos: gotcha!

marco IV manabat: ok cge gusto mo ba mabasa

angel_matocinos: ok.

marco IV manabat: baka kasi saan mapunta ito

marco IV manabat: kilala ko sarili ko

marco IV manabat: kapag masaya ako sa isang babae

marco IV manabat: un weakness ko

angel_matocinos: ok...

marco IV manabat: kuha mo na

angel_matocinos: so, ur point is...?

marco IV manabat: yeah

marco IV manabat: but im not using others just to fill out what's missing in my life

angel_matocinos: i know...

marco IV manabat: im gonna do it just to make our lives happy

angel_matocinos: ok

marco IV manabat: basta un na un

marco IV manabat: hehehe

angel_matocinos: still dont get ur point..

marco IV manabat: ha?

marco IV manabat: akala ko gotcha na

angel_matocinos: ur beating around the bush

marco IV manabat: gusto mo ba prangkahan na wala ng pasakale pa?

angel_matocinos: hmm.. spill it

marco IV manabat: ok ok ok

marco IV manabat: eto ha

marco IV manabat: baka one day bigla na lang sabihin ko sau na pwede ba kita ligawan

marco IV manabat: un na un

marco IV manabat: kuha mo na?

angel_matocinos: nakuha ko.

marco IV manabat: lpu ka ba talaga or sinasadya mo lang na di magets?

angel_matocinos: frankly, i dont see anything wrong with it

angel_matocinos: gets ko

marco IV manabat: wag lang ako mabasted

marco IV manabat: hehehe

angel_matocinos: bitter!

angel_matocinos: joke..

marco IV manabat: basta

angel_matocinos: sigurista...

marco IV manabat: ok ka naman angel

marco IV manabat: pwedeng pwede

angel_matocinos: ahaha...

marco IV manabat: di ko lang alam kung ok ako sau

angel_matocinos: ok k namn ah.. ikaw lang 'tong super mo pinapababa ng self esteem mo..

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marco IV manabat: kailangan ko din ng inspirasyon

marco IV manabat: siya kasi ung greatest gift ko sa sarili ko

angel_matocinos: madami kang pwedeng gawing inspirasyon

marco IV manabat: oo

marco IV manabat: at isa ka na doon

angel_matocinos: thanks!

angel_matocinos: feels good to know na nakatulong ako sau

marco IV manabat: yeah

marco IV manabat: its brights me up

angel_matocinos: i appreciate that..

marco IV manabat: malay natin ikaw pala hinahanap ko

angel_matocinos: u knows?

angel_matocinos: ahaha

angel_matocinos: hu knows pala?

marco IV manabat: tumatanggap ka ba ng kalahating unggoy kalahating tao?

angel_matocinos: basta may puso at di rin ako iiwan

marco IV manabat: ang iyong lingkod ay ganun

angel_matocinos: ows..??/

angel_matocinos: haha

marco IV manabat: i mean it

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marco IV manabat: nambabatok ka ba or nanununtok?

angel_matocinos: hmmm.. pareho..

angel_matocinos: haha

marco IV manabat: yari pala ako kung nanjan ako

angel_matocinos: haha..

angel_matocinos: di naman..

angel_matocinos: nagbibigay naman ako ng consideration

marco IV manabat: anung consideration naman un?

angel_matocinos: pwede ko palagpasin sa una, pero di na sa pangalawa..

marco IV manabat: patay

angel_matocinos: why?

marco IV manabat: wala naman

marco IV manabat: magaan pala kamay mo

angel_matocinos: coz di mo lang ako isang beses aasarin...

angel_matocinos: maraming beses pa..

marco IV manabat: oo

marco IV manabat: hehehe

angel_matocinos: haha

marco IV manabat: basta ganun ako maglambing

angel_matocinos: hmm..

Dear Diary #6: It's been a month now..

Dear Diary,

One month.. and counting..

One month na pala kaming hiwalay.. Sad.. Iyak na ko.. :(

Ang bilis ng panahon. Masyado pang sariwa ung nangyari eh.. Nare-recall ko pa last day na nagkita at nag-usap kami, at napag-desisyunang tapusin na ang lahat.

Naiisip ko pa din sya, nami-miss, nananabik na mayakap sya.

Pero naisip ako, sya ba ganun din ang iniisip ngaun? Naiisip nya kaya ako? Nami-miss? Nananabik na mayakap din?

Iyak na naman ako.

Im still in denial stage.. Dine-deny na wala na talaga kami, kasi sa isang sulok sa puso ko, umaasa pa ko. Naghihintay na balikan nya. Baka maisip nya na ako pala talaga ang mahal nya. Andito lang ako, naghihintay sa yo.

Leo..

Bakit kasi napaka-common ng name mo.. Kahit saan may taong may pangalang Leo, kahit hindi ikaw un pero bakit di ko mabigkas.

Dati ang motor walang dating sa akin, pero ngaun alam ko na bawat tatak ng motor at kung anong model. Di ko maiwasan mapasulyap pag may dumadaan na Fury sa harapan ko. Wini-wish na sana ikaw ang sakay nun.

Natutuwa ako nung malaman kong in-add mo sa Facebook after nating maghiwalay. Di pa kita kino-confirm pero wala din akong balak na i-ignore ka. Mas natuwa pa ako nung nakita kong ni-poke mo ko.. nagpaparamdam ka ba? may sasabihin ka ba sa akin? Nakakakilig..

Pero nalungkot na nman ako nung ni-try kita tawagan pero di ka ma-reach.. Ung days naging weeks, di pa rin kita makontak. bakit kaya? wala ka na bang phone? o baka may nangyari sau? u got me worried ng sobra..

bakit pa ako nag-aalala sa yo? kasi mahal pa kita eh.. mahal na mahal..

wala akong pakialam kung mabasa man 'to ng mga friends ko. alam ko naman ung effort nilang tulungan ako para lang makalimutan ka.. gusto ko lang iparating sa yo kung anong nararamdaman ko. kahit sa blog lang, kahit alam kong walang chance na mabasa mo 'to..

sana hindi na lang nangyari 'to..

kung alam mo lang kung gaano kahirap magpanggap na matapang.. pinipilit burahin ung nakaraan.. sa pelikula at telenovela lang nangyyari un, mahirap pla sa totoong buhay.

di naman ganun kadali ang alisin ka sa mundo ko. 5 years tayong magkasama kaya malamang matagal-tagal ang healing process ko nito..

im looking forward to meet anyone pero naiiba ka pa rin sa kanila.

Move on..

2 words lang. Pero matindi ang impact. Move on from your sight, your memories. Let others in.

Open my life to many possibilities. Meet and greet new people. Live and let go.

Sana maka-move on na ko.. Sana kayanin ko..

Isang buwan pa lang.. Ilang months, even years, pa ang darating pa masabi ko sa sarili ko na i've finally moved on?

Purchasing Power

Sarap ng may purchasing power, aka credit card.. Sarap ng feeling na ma-approve! Ibig sabihin kasi may 'K' kang gumastos at magbayad.. laki ng sweldo mo eh!

You get to buy all the things you wanted.. Enjoy the luxury.. Treat you family and friends with no limit.. Travel anywhere without the hassle..

Pero sabi nga, some good thing's never last.. Kasi after a month, anjan na ang monthly bills.. waahh.. sa umpisa, magbabayad pa.. kung maangas-angas ka, full payment pa ang gagawin mo (daming pera ah!)..

Pangalawa, pangatlo.. keri pa din ang full payment. nag-cash advance ka pa ng lagay na un ha! out of cash ka kasi, yan ang rason mo.. angas-ness!

Pang-apat, panglima.. minimum payment na, hirap ka na mag-full payment kasi may mga dumagdag ng charges. grocery, frap sa starbucks, baconator ng wendys, celfone, damit at sapatos.. sa isang swipe lang sa loob ng isang araw! lufet..

Pang-anim hanggang pang-labing isa.. minimum payment pa din.. kahit kinakapos ka na, sige pa din sa pagswipe.. katwiran mo, binabayaran mo naman eh, minimum nga lang. kahit 3 piraso ng biogesic sa mercury drug, card pa din ang gagamitin mong pambayad.. wala ka bang bente pesos lang?

pang-labingdalawang buwan.. na-charge ka na ng annual membership fee and sadly, it made you go over the limit.. in short, lagpas na sa credit limit.. at mejo lumaki ang minimum payment.. ang iba, isa-sacrifice na lang ang monthly allowance para makabayad lang at makapag-swipe ulit.. ang ilan, manghihiram na sa mga kaibigan o kay ermat at erpat.. tapos, charge ulit!

1 yr and 1 month.. wala ng laman ang card.. puro recurring charges na lang.. binabayaran mo pa yung mga matgaal mo ng nabili, ung digicam mong half the price na lang ang halaga ngaun, ung sapatos na binigay mo na sa kapatid mo, ung frap na matagal ng tunaw sa tyan mo, ung celfone na binili mo sa bf mo na ex mo na ngaun.. gusto mo silang singilin, ung mga kaibigan mong nagpapalibre lagi sa mga posh na resto, ung nanay mong laging nagpapa-grocery buwan-buwan, ung tatay mong nagpagawa ng pustiso at salamin, ung mga kapatid mong nag-aya sa yo sa The Spa at ung exbf mong nagpalibre ng sine at pagkain, nagpabili ng celfone, nag-aya mag-check in sa hotel gamit ang credit card.. hays...

kaka-tusta ng utak! (yan ang laging linya ng friend ko..)

ipit ka na, ipit na ipit.. gagawin mo ngaun ang lahat, mabayaran lang ang utang mo.

maga-apply ng loan, kakausapin ang kapitbahay ng nagpapa-56, isasangla ang celfone o alahas, isasangla ang ATM sa officemate, babale ng sweldo kay boss, gagawa ng promisory note, tatawagan ang credit card company at magrerequest ng fee waiver (pag di nakuha sa pakiusap, magi-irate ka na at hihingi ng supervisor), maga-apply ng amnesty program, babaliin ang card, lilipat ng bahay, magrequest ng change of address para di makarating sa yo ang bills, mag-abroad, takasan na lang at wag ng bayaran..

ilan sa atin, ganyan ang pinipiling option para maka-iwas.. alam nating mali ito pero sa taong gipit, ito ang nararapat na solusyon.

hindi 'to kwento ng buhay ko.. pero isa ako sa aamin na guilty ako sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Life never fails to give us choices, options. Nasa atin na lang kung ano ang pipiliin nating option.

At dapat pangatawanan natin ung choice na un. Walang pagsisisi sa huli. Pwede pang ituwid ang isang pagkakamali.

Followed..

Yey, salamat kay Mots, friend ni Shinchan na bff ko, sa pag-follow.. Una naman kasi akong nag-follow sa kanya (returning the favor ba 'to?) hehe.. kahit ano pa yan, basta i was followed.. :)

N.E.S. Batch 94 - Sec. Diamond: Reunion

After couple of decades, I never thought I am about to see these familiar faces.. This was our class picture when we were on our 6th grade at NES, batch 94.

Our adviser: Mrs. Natividad Giron

Big thanks to Facebook that we got to reconnect with each other. Thanks to the wonderful people behind this, who'd put their efforts to search for us..

Got so excited how these faces look after 20 years.. some had changed, others had not..

I only have selective memories of my 6th year in primary. All I knew is that I am seated between Robert Santos and Markver Sawit. We're four in a row, together with Claire Macoto. I ended up 2nd honor after the school year, with Annaliza Calla as the 1st honor. I joined the A1 kid contest but Mitchell of sec. Gold bagged the award. We cooked ginatan during our T.H.E. days with Mrs. Flores. Mr. Tadifa, the other T.H.E. teacher, taught us to make strawberry keychains (made from red nylon cord), and shirt printing.

I also happened to know that Lynette had a huge crush with Vic Macazo. And Vic had a twin sister, Victoria. Felixa Peru's mom used to make us jug holders with name on it, one for me & for my sister. Eddie Eroma was the bibbo kid & used to bully fellow mates like Lala Paez. They called her Lala Pain.. bad boys! They also used to tease me with Richard Lustay, the fat boy.. ahaha! and called me tocino.. ahuhu!

At the back row, I can recall faces of Dazzle Tandi, Violet and Maricel. Ferdinand Alarcon also used to be a bully and so is Vic. Lester Dacutan's cousin, Clarissa, was once my classmate when I was in grade 3. Mary Ann Canlas & Mary Jean Bautista were the tallest of all, amongst girls and boys. Robert Santos became Ellen Joy's boyfriend, and to my surprised, they ended up as husband & wife.. sweet!

Rochelle Raypan's kid was now my sister's student in kindergarten. Oh, the bubbly and chubby Cenen Castaneda, I used to see him working at Susano market with his siblings. Marvin Palma and Jeffrey Poris were the "moms" of our era. Marvin's family had a bakery, where Jollibee Quirino now stood.

It's sad to know those were the only memories I've stored in mind. As I eagerly anticipate high school life..

Hope I could reconnect with them again. They're up to a reunion on the 30th of October, and im so eager to come and meet these old faces..

Dear Diary #5: Im Starving...

Hey, IM STARVING...

Accdg to thefreedictionary.com: To suffer from deprivation.

Accdg to answers.com: the act of depriving

Accdg to ME: starving pertains to hunger (for food, power, prestige, love, attention, care, etc)

Im starving for food.. gutom na ko, in short.. given naman para sa isang tao ang punan ang pangangailangan ng pisikal na katawan. kumain ng sapat at mga pagkaing dapat. wag magkulang ngunit wag din lumabis. mahirap maparatangang matakaw. hanggat nakakakain ako 3x a day, espesyal man o hindi ang ulam, basta kasama ko ang pamilya ko sa hapag-kainan, mabubusog na ako..

Im starving for things i cant have.. things like gadgets, cosmetics, jewelry even money. sino ba ang hindi maghahangad ng mga bagay na 'to? lahat nagiging materyoso na, isang disadvantage ng technology. lahat nakadepende sa machines. ang resulta, katamaran, dependency. maaaring hindi lahat ng bagay ay nasa akin pero kung nanaisin ko, makukuha ko din. set goals. ngunit di ko pinangarap dumepende sa isang bagay. di kayang tumbasang ng isang gadget ang aliw na nakukuha ko sa mga kaibigan ko, di kayang bilhin ng pera ang pagmamahalan namin ng pamilya ko.

Im starving for power and prestige.. gusto kong maging sikat, makilala saan mang sulok, makita ang kapasidad ko sa larangang tinahatahas ko.. pero di madali gawin. kailangan ng ibayong pagpupursige at paghihirap. madaming naghahangad pero kaunti ang nabibigyan ng pagkakataon. ang mahirap lang, pag nabigyan ka ng chance for power at prestige, umiiba na ang ikot ng mundo, madami na ang nagbabago. nagiging sakim. ayaw pakawalan. pilit nagtutumaas. sana man lang gawin sa tamang paraan , ung lahat makikinabang.

Im starving for love, attention and care.. mula sa mga taong minahal, minamahal at mamahalin ko. feeling ko kulang ang pagkatao ko. patuloy akong humihingi ng attention, kalinga at pagmamahal. binibigyan naman nila ako pero sa palagay ko laging di sapat. di nga ba sapat o madami lang akong pangangailangan na di mapunan? mas nananaig ung pagiging di sapat kaya di ko namamalayan patuloy akong nagdedemand. ni wala sa hinagap kong di lahat ng tao kayang punan anng pangangailangan ng isa. sa sobrang demand ko, nauwi din ako sa kakulangan. nagkulang na nga ako sa kalinga, attention at pagmamahal, nagkulang pa ako sa mga taong patuloy na pupunan ang kakulangan ko. sana maintindihan nila ako, sana mapatawad nila ako.

minsan sa buhay kailangan may kaunting kakulangan, hindi dapat labis.. lalong mahirap gawing sakto.. at hindi dahil sa may kakulngan ako ay magdedemand ako ng husto sa mga tao at bagay na nakapaligid sa akin. Di ko naiisip nagiging unfair na ako. Di ko naisip sila mismo ay may sarili ding kakulangan na maaaring ako lang ang makakapunan. Sa sobrang kagustuhan na mapunan ang wala sa akin, unti-unti ko silang nababalewala at di napapahalagahan..

Hay, fasting na nga muna ako.. Di bale ng magkulang, basta sa huli, alam kong masaya ako at ang bagay at mga taong nakapaligid sa akin. Di ko naiisip na di naman siguro yung mga bagay ang talagang makakapunan ng kakulangan ko, kundi sila mismo, sila mismo ang bubuo sa aking pagkatao.