Me? Affected?

I am not affected.. 

Really. 

Things and events normally happens beyond our control. Most of the time, they're unplanned. And in the event that something has happened which isn't into our liking, just let it be. It already happened. You can  no longer cry over spilt milk, as the saying goes..

Be grateful that it happened. It is over. Thoughts might still linger in our heads but that is okay. It will soon pass. Eventually, we might be surprised to know that in some point in our life "that" happened.. :)

On a personal level, I just can't believed the fact that it is over. I am not gonna state the exact event. But this one surely just made a huge impact in my life.  I thought I could just be dreaming. Things happened so fast. The next day, it already slipped my mind. As if nothing really happened. There might be some lapses but somehow, it's controllable. 

I thought it would be hard to recover. Recover from embarrassment, guilt and insecurity. But it's only a matter of how I will present myself especially to the person involved. Good thing, nothing has changed. We're still what we are and who we are, regardless if we're all by ourselves or with our other friends. We're able to save of what we had before and looking forward on what we will still be having as time pass us by. 

Happy Birthday BFF ♥

Yay! Birthday ng bff ko.. si chinchan.. :)


Kahit araw-araw kami nagkikita sa office, pero nami-miss ko pa rin sya. Bihira kami makapgkwentuhan kasi magkaiba kami ng oras. Puro text na lang o chat sa FB. Minsan, nagkikita kami sa gym. Pero mabilis lang ang oras. Na-miss ko na yung mga panahon na maghapon kami magkasama, walang uwian, bibili lang kami ng damit sa mall, maliligo sa gym tapos aagahan pumasok sa office para makatulog pa. Na-miss ko na yung mga gala trip namin, sa mall, manood ng sine, kain kung saan-saan tapos sabay namin isha-share sa blog. Magkwekwentuhan tungkol sa lovelife. Sabay magpla-plano ng mga pwedeng puntahan. Dyan kami nagkakasundo. Pareho kami ng hilig pagdating sa galaan, pagkain at goal sa buhay. Gusto namin magtayo ng business someday, gusto namin mag-organize ng events.


Sa kanyang espesyal na araw, ang tanging hiling ko lang ay sana maging happy sya regardless kung anuman ang mga tatahakin nyang pagsubok sa buhay. May God continue to bless him, guide him and keep him safe and healthy. May we have more time to spend together as best friends and able to withstand the test of time.


I ♥ U BFF.. Happy birthday! Thanks for the treat!

My Bestfriend's Wedding

PLOT:

Julianne Potter, a 27-year-old New York restaurant critic, receives a call from her longtime friend Michael O'Neil. In college, the two made an agreement that if neither of them were married by the time they turned 28, they would marry each other. Four days before her 28th birthday, Michael tells her he is about to marry Kimberly Wallace, a 20-year-old student from a wealthy family.

Julianne is upset that Michael will marry someone so wrong for him, and someone he has known for such a short period of time. She realizes that she is in love with Michael, and heads to Chicago, intent on sabotaging his wedding. Soon after arriving she meets Kimberly, who asks her to be the maid of honor. This sets off a comical scenario in which Julianne must pretend to be the dutiful maid of honor while secretly scheming ways to prevent the wedding from happening. She engages in petty sabotage — for example, taking Kimberly and Michael to a karaoke bar after discovering that Kimberly is a terrible singer — and later asks her gay friend George to pretend they are engaged, hoping to make Michael jealous.

When these tactics fail, George convinces Julianne to do the obvious: tell Michael she is in love with him. On the morning of the wedding, Julianne confesses her love to Michael, asks him to marry her instead, and kisses him passionately. Kimberly witnesses this and runs off; Michael chases her, and Julianne chases him unsuccessfully. Julianne finally accepts that she has lost Michael to Kimberly, so she apologizes to her. Michael marries Kimberly, and Julianne wishes them well, consoled by her platonic friend George.

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I love every Julia Roberts' films. She's an epitome of a hopeless romantic woman, dying to meet her man, and will do anything no matter what it takes.

Luckily, I don't have a guy for a bestfriend. 'Coz for sure, I won't be able to help myself but to fall in love with him. Sabi nga, friends can be lovers. So, instead of me playing as his cupid and find him a partner, I'd rather might imagine myself as his partner. Favorable on my end but not on his. It doesn't even count no matter how long I know this guy if he's not feeling the same way as I am to him. Maybe we're just destined to be friends, friends lang.. no more, no less!

It's also not right to expect a lot on someone neither assume much if that can't be even reciprocated. You'll end up hurting yourself more than you can imagine. Just let the closeness be as it is. Just let your feelings grow and simply nurture it in your heart. Then stop.

I know it ain't that easy just to give it up. Just to stop. You've invested much. And you're yearning for a return of your investment. Be open to the possibilities that we can't have it all. You give much and get nothing in return. You risk a lot; still, you fail. You might say, Life is so unfair. It is.

But life never fails to leave us with choices. It all depends on us on what to choose. If we take the risk, we must be aware of the consequences. Just like taking an examination, it's either we pass or we fail. There's nothing in between. You only have to make a stand on your choice. Be firm. Act responsibly. Learn something from it.

Then take the risk again 'til you achieve what you want in life.. That's how life goes. It goes on and on. Nonstop. Never ending.

Dear Diary #7: My new friend Macky

Dear Diary,

I'm happy.

I'm inspired.

Thanks to Macky. A classmate & friend back in college.

Thanks to FB, we've just found each other. Renewed our friendship. Shared our thoughts on things. Even life experiences.

I just can't believed I've had a conversation with this guy for almost 5 hours thru YM voice chat. At the same time, we're also chatting using messenger. Multi-tasking 'to!

Plus, he did call me on my mobile phone right after he asked for my number. Though it only lasted for 2 mins. I really appreciate his effort.

Our conversation started from way back college years - old & common friends - work - family - embarrassing moments - plans and ambitions - personal issues on life and love..

Even though the line got disconnected a lot of times and with issues on headset and mic set up, it didn't stop us. No dead air. Thoughts simply popped out from our minds and a conversation would start.

I don't wanna give a different meaning on what we've had. My intention was to help him moved on from a failed relationship, just like what I've recently experienced. And I really feel for him. So why not share what I've just learned from it, maybe it might also help him.

I can sensed he's a good man. He's so kind, so loving, a good son. Though he had lots of not so good experiences, I can feel his willingness to change. And that taught him much on how to struggle against life's challenges.

On the not so brighter side, I can also sensed his deep longing for love, care and attention. He came from a broken family and that made him feel scared that he might end up the same thing with his own family. He has never moved on yet from his past relationship. I know that he needed to vent it out but no one's available to hear his side. He's suppressing the pain, and I advised him to let it all out. So he could have peace of mind. I reminded him of flipping every negative side of things. To be positive and always believe in himself.

The turn out of our conversation left me mixed up. Should I be inspired, stay calm, or be proud? I don't know.. But one thing's for sure.. I feel like a teenager.. with the kilig factor! :)

I'm positive that we would be able to continue and maintain this friendship amidst the long distance. There's chat, mobile phone, facebook and email that would fuel our communication. I'm willing to take the risk for this new found friend of mine. I like talking to him, I like to hear more from him.