Shinchan and Miyaka: Last Chat for 2010

viva_hottah: haler

angel_matocinos: ping!

angel_matocinos: haller too..

viva_hottah: kagicing lang working on with my blog =) hilo bangenge ate ang mahal kung kapatid ngayon lang natapos simula 7am ang ini na ng pc parang sasabag na

angel_matocinos: haha..

angel_matocinos: parang kapatid ko.. from 12nn til 4pm

angel_matocinos: kung di pa nakaramdam ng gutom, di aalis sa pc

angel_matocinos: im also working on my blog..

angel_matocinos: any updates sa office?

viva_hottah: walang bago c\ganun parin naman

viva_hottah: at day ayaw pa niya matulog , pinagalitan nga ni mudra

angel_matocinos: ahaha.. talaga? si sisteret ba yan?

viva_hottah: oo sisteret

viva_hottah: http://chinchanlakwatsero.blogspot.com/2010/12/its-last-time.html i really like the movie sad yan te

angel_matocinos: i'll watch it.. wait..

viva_hottah: trailer lang yan te

viva_hottah: nagkita lang sila every summer huhu

angel_matocinos: intro pa nga lang ng song, nakakaiyak na..

angel_matocinos: anong movie yan?

viva_hottah: same time next year . film created 1978

viva_hottah: A man and woman meet by chance at a romantic inn over dinner. Although both are married to others, they find themselves in the same bed the next morning questioning how this could have happened. They agree to meet on the same weekend each year. Originally a stage play, the two are seen changing, years apart, always in the same room in different scenes. Each of them always appears on schedule, but as time goes on each has some personal crisis that the other helps them through, often without both of them understanding what is going on

angel_matocinos: ah.. illicit affair!

viva_hottah: sad yung movie

angel_matocinos: oo.. ok sana kung pareho silang walang sabit eh..

viva_hottah: kaya nga sad yung movie kasi they really love each other at a wrong time , theyre just a victim of circumstance , bittersweet

angel_matocinos: ah, ayoko ng ganun.. ang hirap ng ganun sitwasyon..

angel_matocinos: right love at the wrong time

viva_hottah: basta sad attached ako

angel_matocinos: sad naman talaga..

viva_hottah: gutom nako

angel_matocinos: di ka pa kumakain?

angel_matocinos: ui, what time ka nga pala punta d2 bukas?

viva_hottah: late na siguro , puyat siyempre mamaya

angel_matocinos: ok lng

angel_matocinos: mga hapon. sabihan ko din si ademar.

viva_hottah: SGE PARA ILIBRE NYA KO SA TRIKE HIHIHI

angel_matocinos: haha.. kita na lang kau. di pa kau magkakawalaan..

angel_matocinos: open mo lang ym mo ha..

viva_hottah: WALANG patayan to teh hihihi tapos na ko sa blog hihihi

angel_matocinos: haha.. walang patayan talaga ha! sige lang..

angel_matocinos: bakit di ko pa nakikita ung post mo?

viva_hottah: ito na =)

angel_matocinos: asus.. kaya naman pala.. now pa lang ipo-post?

angel_matocinos: wala pa!!!!!!!!

angel_matocinos: asan na??????

viva_hottah: sandali hihi apurado

angel_matocinos: naman eh.. kala ko naman kasi meron na...

angel_matocinos: ui, baka naman bukas sumpungin ka na naman ng katamaran ha...

viva_hottah: pupunta nga ko te.

angel_matocinos: asus, same lines... haha!

angel_matocinos: ano na? ilang oras pa hihintayin ko bago ko mabasa ung post mo?

angel_matocinos: nakapagpost na ko na ko ng happy new year oh!

viva_hottah: pinapagalitan ako kasi uyung barbeque kinakain ko after ihawin walang natitira hehe salot talga

angel_matocinos: haha..

angel_matocinos: multi-tasking ha!

viva_hottah: magaling kayo ako sa part na yun

angel_matocinos: aynaku, ung kapatid ko pinag-bbq ko, ayoko mausukan

angel_matocinos: every new year, ako talaga toka sa bbq

viva_hottah: haha ako ook lang

angel_matocinos: kami ni ...

angel_matocinos: pero wlaa n sya eh

angel_matocinos: kaya ayoko n mag-bbq

viva_hottah: haha sarap ng barabeque ang bilis maubos dapat di na nila nilagay sa stick

angel_matocinos: kami pork chop na ni-bbq, para wala ng stick..

viva_hottah: sila nag effort pa

angel_matocinos: nadala na ako mag-bbq ng may stick, natusok ko daliri ko..

angel_matocinos: kanina naman, nasundot ko ng kutsilyo daliri ko..

angel_matocinos: clumsy!

viva_hottah: eow

angel_matocinos: tanga lang db?

angel_matocinos: habang naghihiwa ng ib-bbq.. peste talaga mag-bbq!

viva_hottah: listening to bubbly , tonight i choose to be happy

angel_matocinos: tama!

angel_matocinos: ano ung exchange links sa blog?

angel_matocinos: paano ginagawa un?

viva_hottah: dapat meron ka chat box

viva_hottah: magpalitan kayo ng blogsite, parang follower na rin

angel_matocinos: iba pa ung follow?

viva_hottah: minsan kasi out of favor gusto nila i follow mo sla para mafoloow ka rin nila

viva_hottah: parang ganun din naman pinaganda lang

angel_matocinos: iba ung follow sa exchange links?

viva_hottah: parang ganun din sya

viva_hottah: Most bloggers and Website owners share the same goal: build an enormous amount of traffic. Link exchanges ang tawag dun

angel_matocinos: hay.. kumplikado!

angel_matocinos: so pwedeng follow na lang kesa exchange links?

viva_hottah: haha dami nagtatanong yung picture natin sa wildlife

angel_matocinos: anong picture?

angel_matocinos: ung prof pic mo/

viva_hottah: oo at saka yung parang tulay sa wildlife yung pic sa recent post ko sa blogger

angel_matocinos: ah ung sa lake?

angel_matocinos: oh bakit?

angel_matocinos: anong tanong nila?

viva_hottah: ganda daw kasi gusto din nila magpapicture

viva_hottah: hihhi

angel_matocinos: haha..

angel_matocinos: talaga? ganda naman talaga dun..

viva_hottah: yung link exchange te yun yung sarili mong code magaapear sa mga website nila

angel_matocinos: ipasyal mo sila, un lang un!

angel_matocinos: hay, suko na ko sa link exchange na yan.. saka na.. sarili kong blog di ko maayos eh..

viva_hottah: try this link

viva_hottah:

viva_hottah: yan ang tinatawag na link exchange you copy and paste it in your link, vice versa then your link will be posted on their site too

angel_matocinos: ha? nosebleed...

angel_matocinos: san ko ipo-post?

angel_matocinos: saang link?

viva_hottah: sa site mo

viva_hottah: put it under gadget

viva_hottah: wala pa ako link eh di ko pa alam pano gumawa

angel_matocinos: te, url ang hinahanap..

viva_hottah: parang ganun , pero yung link na yun is parang logo design

angel_matocinos: hay..

viva_hottah: hehe puinta ko jan tom

angel_matocinos: ikaw nga mag-ayos nitong blog ko...

angel_matocinos: mag-post lang alam ko..

viva_hottah: ok sge

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angel_matocinos: hala.. ano yan!!!!

angel_matocinos: haha...

angel_matocinos: teka, nasan na ung post mo????

viva_hottah: di mo pa nababasa ?

angel_matocinos: ah wait..

angel_matocinos: check ko.. hehe

angel_matocinos: done reading it...

angel_matocinos: it's soooooooooooooooo beautiful.....

angel_matocinos: THANK YOU.. part ako ng last post mo for 2010!

viva_hottah: memorable nga ang 2010 for me sad pero thats life eh

angel_matocinos: i love the Edward-Bella-Jacob part!

angel_matocinos: kahit sad pa yan..

angel_matocinos: memorable pa rin

viva_hottah: hhihi love ko nga din yung part na yun

viva_hottah: parang teenager lang

angel_matocinos: yup..

viva_hottah: pero atleast may kurot sa puso somehow

angel_matocinos: meron ka pang quote from Oprah..

angel_matocinos: sabi ko na, clg wont be missed...

angel_matocinos: pero okay lang un..

viva_hottah: galing nga . ganda ng words of wisdom ni oprah

viva_hottah: expect clg wont be missed btw i removed him already on fb . i know by removing him would help me a lot to move on .

viva_hottah: totoo yun kasi i can check fb na ulit

viva_hottah: hindi naman nya mapapansin yun na i deleted him i am nothing to him

angel_matocinos: its ok na isali mo sya sa post mo

angel_matocinos: kasi he played a major role in ur life..

viva_hottah: somehow nakatulong din sya , i became so mature about life dapat ganun ka din ,

angel_matocinos: ung part na: I have loved you and i will always be loving you. dapat love as friends na lang ha o ex-lover

angel_matocinos: wag na maghope

angel_matocinos: oo naman

viva_hottah: true din na im still searching for something na makakapagpasaya sa akin

angel_matocinos: nagpasalamat ako sa kanya te.. through blog!

angel_matocinos: never stop searching for what truly makes u happy

viva_hottah: wala ng hope yung i will always love you ... hindi na deep yung love na yun

angel_matocinos: tama..

viva_hottah: nagpapasalamat ka kanino

angel_matocinos: sa kanya.. kay ex..

viva_hottah: part na sya ng life mo eh so tama na

angel_matocinos: http://akoyisangtripulante.blogspot.com/2010/12/since-youve-been-gone.html

angel_matocinos: yup. and sabi ko talaga sa sarili ko, move on na.. let go of his memories..

angel_matocinos: wala na ko aasahan eh..

angel_matocinos: nagset na ko ng mga goals ko, dun na lang ako magfocus

angel_matocinos: lalo na ung travel adventure natin

viva_hottah: tama

angel_matocinos: masakit pa din pero di nman agad natin maalis un eh..

angel_matocinos: huling sulyap ko n kanina sa fb nya

angel_matocinos: pero ung image nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko

viva_hottah: ang sad naman

angel_matocinos: i know..

angel_matocinos: he wil always be a part of me..

viva_hottah: ok na yun

angel_matocinos: may mga maganda din naman syang ginawa for me

viva_hottah: it happend may reason dapat alam natin purpose natin

angel_matocinos: di ako galit sa kanya te.,.

viva_hottah: dapat happy na tayo

viva_hottah: you know what . nagawa ako ng banner sa room

viva_hottah: i will plant happy thoughts everyday

viva_hottah: that helps

angel_matocinos: banner/

angel_matocinos: parang tarpauline?

viva_hottah: bond paper lang naman

angel_matocinos: maybe..

angel_matocinos: everyday.. lahat ng natutunan natin at the end of the day, isulat natin..

viva_hottah: ako talaga , everytime i wake up nakita ko yung statement na yun happy nako

angel_matocinos: ako , sa planner ko..

viva_hottah: ganda na ng blog site mo . malinis at organized dali na pala sya ayusin kesa dati

angel_matocinos: meron space dun na puro random thoughts lang

angel_matocinos: ano ung na-feel ko nugn araw na un..

angel_matocinos: thanks!

angel_matocinos: haha.. magulo ba dati?

angel_matocinos: hmm.. nugn binanggit mo ung banner, naalala ko tuloy ung wall ni clg...

angel_matocinos: ung sahig nya na puro sulat nya

viva_hottah: which one?

viva_hottah: oh yeah i remember it =(

viva_hottah: that helps pala

viva_hottah: kala ko he's gone crazy

viva_hottah: hindi pala

angel_matocinos: haha.. tama.. nire-release lang nya siguro ung emotions nya through writing

angel_matocinos: parang tau ngaun..

angel_matocinos: blogging .. sosyal lang ang dating.. hahah

viva_hottah: yup ganun pala yun

angel_matocinos: it helps talaga te..

angel_matocinos: tama ka..

viva_hottah: i never thought i would do the same thing

angel_matocinos: ginagawa ko naman dati 'to.. nagdi-diary ako dati..

angel_matocinos: pero hi tech na kaya blogging na.. haha

viva_hottah: tama masarap ang pakiramdam

angel_matocinos: tamah!

viva_hottah: pero at the same time sad kasi i had to delete him on fb

viva_hottah: no more contact info with him

angel_matocinos: one way to move on db?

angel_matocinos: tama lang un..

angel_matocinos: mas masakit pag nakikita pa natin sila

angel_matocinos: lalo na pag nakikita mo sya masaya, tapos ikaw hindi

angel_matocinos: ma-depress k n nman

angel_matocinos: di ba.. detach!!!!

viva_hottah: tama detach and divert

angel_matocinos: detach from anything/anyone that would remind us of them

angel_matocinos: ayoko na 'te.. ngaun ko lang narealiz ekung gano ko pinahihirapan sarili ko!

angel_matocinos: isip ako ng isip.. sya naman, enjoy lang..

angel_matocinos: ang dami ko pa dpat gawin na mas importante kesa sa kanya..

viva_hottah: korek ka han

angel_matocinos: tama..

angel_matocinos: basta for this month, kailangan ko magwork out..

angel_matocinos: magtipid

angel_matocinos: kumain sa di pa antin nakakainan

angel_matocinos: tour around metro

angel_matocinos: facial

viva_hottah: tama ka . masaya tayo dun eh yoko na rin magisip nakakatanda

angel_matocinos: kaya naman natin maging masaya eh..

angel_matocinos: di ka ba naging masaya sa mga adventures natin?

angel_matocinos: madami pa tayo dapat tuklasin te..

angel_matocinos: sabi nga, ang pagkakaron ng luvlife, added bonus na lang sa buhay..

viva_hottah: tama ka jan so dapat happy na tayo

angel_matocinos: tama.. think happy thoughts..

angel_matocinos: then the rest will follow..

angel_matocinos: leave no space for sadness

angel_matocinos: hey, lagyan mo naman ng picture ung ym mo..

viva_hottah: pano

angel_matocinos: punta ka sa messenger

viva_hottah: may pix naman ako ah

angel_matocinos: wala

angel_matocinos: blanko!

angel_matocinos: ui, may webcam k b?

viva_hottah: yoko no kadiri ang fez ko te

angel_matocinos: ang arte!

angel_matocinos: pipintasan ba kita?

viva_hottah: wait ill change pix

angel_matocinos: go

angel_matocinos: ho-hum...

viva_hottah: o meron na diba?

angel_matocinos: ano ba yan? ung bago naman..

angel_matocinos: nakakasawa na.. haha!

viva_hottah: ok wait lang cute kaya to

angel_matocinos: wow, conceited ha!

viva_hottah: cute talaga =)

angel_matocinos: asan na?

viva_hottah: wala kasing closeup eh

angel_matocinos: nice..

angel_matocinos: facebook?

angel_matocinos: ahaha

viva_hottah: layo naman =)

angel_matocinos: crop mo

viva_hottah: pano

angel_matocinos: paint

viva_hottah: matrabaho wag nalang]

angel_matocinos: ahaha

angel_matocinos: pwede na yan..

angel_matocinos: teka, hanap ako

viva_hottah: cge

angel_matocinos: try mo 'to

angel_matocinos: eto pa

viva_hottah: malalayo naman

viva_hottah: ok na to =)

angel_matocinos: dami na nyan ha

viva_hottah: haha ok na to te

angel_matocinos: hmp. pinahirapan mo pa ako..

angel_matocinos: ahaha

viva_hottah: hehe yoko na kasi magcrop

angel_matocinos: ang ganda ng petsa bukas: 01.01.11

angel_matocinos: puro 1

viva_hottah: tama

angel_matocinos: sana swerte ang taon na 'to..

viva_hottah: sana

angel_matocinos: gusto mo ng mga joke?

angel_matocinos: kanina pa ko tawa ng tawa d2..

angel_matocinos: nagbabasa ng mga joke

viva_hottah: joke? sms?

angel_matocinos: nope

viva_hottah: anong joke

angel_matocinos: sige. wait

angel_matocinos: baka makornihan ka..

angel_matocinos: te..

angel_matocinos: just read ur msg sa fb..

angel_matocinos: wala shift si jay

viva_hottah: ok

viva_hottah: talaga sbi ko kay jef meron

angel_matocinos: pati si apple, wala din shift

angel_matocinos: i love this line: To an ex begging to be taken back:

"Sorry, I don't recycle."

viva_hottah: ito na ba yung joke ate=)

angel_matocinos: nope

angel_matocinos: korni eh..

angel_matocinos: mga hirit lang

viva_hottah: ate gamitin ng utol ko pc ha wait maya kung gising kapa

viva_hottah: text you

angel_matocinos: okies

angel_matocinos: Happy New Year!!!

viva_hottah: new year na omg

angel_matocinos: less than an hour na lang

viva_hottah: hpy new year to you and your family ano kaya gawa ni clg hihihi joke

angel_matocinos: hala..

angel_matocinos: alam mo naman na pag naisip mo si clg, automatic , naiisip ko din si...

angel_matocinos: ahahahaha

angel_matocinos: Happy new year to us!!!

viva_hottah is typing...

viva_hottah: yun na

angel_matocinos: Bukas.. start ng bagong "us"

angel_matocinos: Happier, better, stronger...

angel_matocinos: Livelier than ever!!!

Happy New Year

A relaxed mind

A peaceful soul

A joyful spirit

A healthy body

and

A heart full of love...

2010: Best and Worst

I had the best and worst of everything for 2010.. Well, lahat naman siguro tayo meron! :p

BEST

: I got promoted as Mentor/RTA. It's an achievement for me. It's time na siguro to move up. I've been with the company for almost 4 years, and it's time to show improvements on my career.

: I've gained lots of friends, starting sa mga tinuruan kong trainees (from batch 10-15), to fellow Ops people, to friends of friends. Dahil sa kanila, naging 600 na ang friends ko sa Facebook at lahat sila ay kilala ko!

: I was able to open and, hopefully, maintain a savings account. I used to before pero ilang months lang withdrawn na lahat ang laman. Wala pa akong alam nun sa pag-manage ng pera. Ngayon, alam ko na i-value ang pinaghirapan ko. And, of course, it's better to have saved something for the rainy days.

: I've started to live healthy and beautiful by going to the gym and eat in portions. Less rice, more on fruits. I've tried to avoid drinking carbonated drinks and opted for juices and water. I've pampered myself by going to the salon and spa. Clubbing with my friends. Drinking and eating at bar and restos we've never been before.

: I've been to different places, mostly within Manila. From the walled city of Intramuros to Quezon City Memorial Circle. Pinakamalayo ko ng narating ay ang Naga. I've traveled by land, by air and by water. Ang galing!

: I was able to conquer my fear of heights. Ziplining. Kung gaano ako katagal kinumbinse ng mga friends ko, ganun din kadali yung pag-zipline. Wala pang 10 mins, pero enjoy sya. Taking a plane ride. Mas nakakatakot pala ung descending kesa ung ascending pa lang. Aalog-alog pa at nakakabingi.

: Been to a place where I'm a complete stranger, sa Naga. Di kasi ako marunong magsalita at makaintindi ng salitang bikolano. Kailangan pa ng interpreter. I enjoyed the place. Sarap balikan. I left memories there and I'll keep it in my heart forever..

: Started blogging. It's where I've put all my emotions, my thoughts. It helped me ease the pain and hurt. And I love customizing it.

: Gadgets and other stuff. I have my ITouch (the best of all), my phone, my PC. I still subscribed to Cosmo mags. I had my 4th BDJ Planner and I've attended their rendezvous. Shopped for clothes and accessories that suits me.

: I've survived an operation at no cost. Thanks to Maxicare and Philhealth.

: I've come to know my true friends, who were indeed there for me when I needed them. First time ko magka-BFF sa katauhan ni Marq. Napanatili kong strong ang friendship namin nila Apple, Jay, Warren at Sharlene. Kahit magkaka-iba na kami ng work, we still get to keep in touch. I still have the Moms, my college/highshool/elementary friends. And we're able to put up a reunion, kamustahan at kwentuhan sa buhay-buhay.

: I've realized the value of my family. I've felt their unconditional love. On times when I least expected them. Akala ko I can live all by myself. Akala ko I no longer needed their help. I really appreciated them, their time and efforts, nung na-ospital ako. Kahit di kagandahan ang pinakita ko nun, di nila ako pinabayaan, sinamahan nila ako hanggang sa makalabas ako ng ospital. Nang walang hinihinging kapalit.

WORST

: The biggest break up I ever had. My 5-year relationship with him has come to an end. I thought it's for keeps. I never had the slightest idea that everything will be over between us. I've given him all the love, care and attention he needed and I never wanted anything in return but his love and affection. But, as the saying goes, some good things never last. I've done all the possibilities to bring us back together but I failed. Maybe it's time for me to give up and move on with my life as solo.

: I've lost my extended family. Akala ko sila na ang makakasama ko aside sa family ko. Akala ko makakatuntong ulit ako sa Naga at makapag-stay sa bahay nila. Makakwentuhan ulit sila.

: I've had a painful operation, and it's literally hurting me. I've stayed in the hospital for 4 days, surrounded with white walls and ceiling, needles and nurses. At totoo palang nakakabaliw kapag na-ospital ka.

: I've experienced the downfall of SBBS. Ang dating masayang environment, ngayon malungkot na at punong-puno ng mga plastic na nilalang. I hate working with them. I hate them.

: I've been in a situation where friendship has been tested. I thought it'll be the end of our friendship. Nakakahinayang because I've trusted this person so much. I've told him all the things that he's not ought to know. But he failed me.

: My brother had an accident and some attacks. We thought we could protect him. We thought we could keep him safe all the time.

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Well, those were just highlights of what I've been through for the year 2010. May masaya, may malungkot. I owed much to these people, who've stayed, came and left me. I've gained learnings through experience. I'm blessed to have been surrounded with things & people I love. But to top it all, I am so thankful that these things made me a better and stronger person.

Ten Things I Hate About Myself

I hate my way of thinking for I only think of nonsense.

I hate my way of talking for I can't say something with confidence.

I hate my way of singing for it only shows sadness.

I hate my way of dancing for it only shows ungracefulness.

I hate the way I look for it only shows my tired ugly skin.

I hate the way I cook for I make a bad cuisine.

I hate the way I play the game for I end up being beaten up.

I hate the way I spend the day for I end up giving up.

I hate the way people look at me, for I get so paranoid.

Words that are so mean, I tried not to recall.

But the number one I hate has something to do with you,

I hate myself for loving you, for you're my greatest dream that can never be.

This is My Current Status: Single

Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

[Chorus]

Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

Since You've Been Gone

He'd been gone for a while and I know he's no longer coming back. But I'm still patiently waiting and earnestly hoping for him.

I've looked for all the possibilities of seeing us together again. But I was a failure. I haven't detached myself yet from the people and things that has in relation to him. Because I still want him badly.

I know it's hurting and so freaking tiring. I have no more tears to cry. I need to free myself from his memories. I want to drop from hanging on his thoughts. I've been in this trap for too long. It ain't that hard to escape. I can only if I want to.

Maybe now is the time to stop. And I'm the only one who can put an end to my illusions. It's very evident that it's going nowhere. He's with somebody. I should be thankful that someone's taking care of him, loving him.

Before I welcome the new year, I hope that I could banish this feeling. No more ill-feelings. No more pain and hatred. No more thoughts and memories of him. I hope I could breathe freely for the first time on the very first day of the new year. And eventually, I can say I've moved on.

To have moved on doesn't necessarily mean to have someone new in my life. I maybe alone, but definitely not lonely. After all, being alone won't make me less of a person. :)

I am looking forward to enjoy my life the way I see it, get all the things I want, achieve all the goals I've set, bringing back the old me with my family and friends. I would search for my true passion and my real identity. I want to love myself even more, so others would love me.

I'd better say thanks to you, Leo Belarmino.. For I have met you, became my friend and my lover.. For you've brought me happiness. You've made me believe on what I can do and aspire for my ambitions. You've praised me for my works, you've been proud of me with all my achievements. You've taught me how to be independent and strong. You've given me more than I expected. I owe you much.

I've loved you much. Thanks to you.

It's Never my Loss

Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we care about leaves.

But the truth is, it's not our loss.. It's theirs..

Because they left the only person in the world who would never give up on them.

This Is What I Feel

You know that feeling when I look at you and think "Wow, I love you but we're just friends." Or maybe when you look at her. It hurts so much sometimes. When I'm in love with you, and you're in love with her. I love everything about you and you love everything about her. I wasted all my wishes on you. I kept it in for long. No one knows how confused I am.

It's complicated..

That's my usual answer when someone asks me what's wrong. When I look at you two together, my eyes fill up with tears. Because I love you. I love you so much. And sometimes I just wish you knew.

I Still Can't Get Enough Of You

I can't completely let go of you

Let go of us...

All I can say is I still love you

I know you don't want to hear it

But it makes no sense to pretend I don't

I miss you with all of me

Things get easier

But will never without you

I will cry less

But the pain will still be there

The love we shared and gave to each other

Will always remain in my heart forever...

My Bestfriend's Wedding

PLOT:

Julianne Potter, a 27-year-old New York restaurant critic, receives a call from her longtime friend Michael O'Neil. In college, the two made an agreement that if neither of them were married by the time they turned 28, they would marry each other. Four days before her 28th birthday, Michael tells her he is about to marry Kimberly Wallace, a 20-year-old student from a wealthy family.

Julianne is upset that Michael will marry someone so wrong for him, and someone he has known for such a short period of time. She realizes that she is in love with Michael, and heads to Chicago, intent on sabotaging his wedding. Soon after arriving she meets Kimberly, who asks her to be the maid of honor. This sets off a comical scenario in which Julianne must pretend to be the dutiful maid of honor while secretly scheming ways to prevent the wedding from happening. She engages in petty sabotage — for example, taking Kimberly and Michael to a karaoke bar after discovering that Kimberly is a terrible singer — and later asks her gay friend George to pretend they are engaged, hoping to make Michael jealous.

When these tactics fail, George convinces Julianne to do the obvious: tell Michael she is in love with him. On the morning of the wedding, Julianne confesses her love to Michael, asks him to marry her instead, and kisses him passionately. Kimberly witnesses this and runs off; Michael chases her, and Julianne chases him unsuccessfully. Julianne finally accepts that she has lost Michael to Kimberly, so she apologizes to her. Michael marries Kimberly, and Julianne wishes them well, consoled by her platonic friend George.

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I love every Julia Roberts' films. She's an epitome of a hopeless romantic woman, dying to meet her man, and will do anything no matter what it takes.

Luckily, I don't have a guy for a bestfriend. 'Coz for sure, I won't be able to help myself but to fall in love with him. Sabi nga, friends can be lovers. So, instead of me playing as his cupid and find him a partner, I'd rather might imagine myself as his partner. Favorable on my end but not on his. It doesn't even count no matter how long I know this guy if he's not feeling the same way as I am to him. Maybe we're just destined to be friends, friends lang.. no more, no less!

It's also not right to expect a lot on someone neither assume much if that can't be even reciprocated. You'll end up hurting yourself more than you can imagine. Just let the closeness be as it is. Just let your feelings grow and simply nurture it in your heart. Then stop.

I know it ain't that easy just to give it up. Just to stop. You've invested much. And you're yearning for a return of your investment. Be open to the possibilities that we can't have it all. You give much and get nothing in return. You risk a lot; still, you fail. You might say, Life is so unfair. It is.

But life never fails to leave us with choices. It all depends on us on what to choose. If we take the risk, we must be aware of the consequences. Just like taking an examination, it's either we pass or we fail. There's nothing in between. You only have to make a stand on your choice. Be firm. Act responsibly. Learn something from it.

Then take the risk again 'til you achieve what you want in life.. That's how life goes. It goes on and on. Nonstop. Never ending.

Wishing and Hoping

Wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin',

Planning and dreamin' each night of his charms.
That won't get you into his arms

So if your're looking for love you can share
All you gotta to is hold him, and kiss him, and love him,
And show him that you care.

Show him that you care, just for him.
Do the things that he likes to do.
Wear your hair just for him, 'cause,
You won't get him, thinkin' and a prayin',
Wishin' and hopin'.

'Cause wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin',
Planning and dreamin' his kisses will start.
That won't get you into his heart!

So if you're thinking how great true love is
All you gotta to is hold him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and love him.
Yeah, just do it!
And after you do, you will be his.

You gotta show him that you care just for him.
Do the things that he likes to do.
Wear your hair just for him, 'cause,
You won't get him, thinkin' and a prayin',
Wishin' and a hopin'.

'Cause wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin',
Planning and dreamin' his kisses will start.
That won't get you into his heart!

So if you're thinking how great true love is!

All you gotta to is hold him, and kiss him, and squeeze him, and love him.
Yeah, just do it!
And after you do, you will be his.

You will be his.

You will be his!

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Every time I hear this song, I can't help but picture myself getting married, wearing my bridal gown, walking down the aisle, meeting my man at the altar, exchanging our vows and be pronounced as husband and wife..

It's one lovely song that I would like to hear when it's time for me to tie the knot. Sweet ng dating.. Sarap isayaw.. Ako na ang pinakamagandang babae sa mundo!

Di masamang mag-ilusyon, isa itong ambisyon.. Isa lang sa mga labtrip ko!

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