I feel so low, feel so down, helpless, hopeless.. All mixed up! Can't wear a slight smile on my face, can't breathe properly, can't relax well, can't ease myself.. im so much bothered.. too preoccupied with things i should not be dealing with in the first place. but i let myself affected, carried by my emotions..
a sudden thought of what just happened would easily bring me into tears.. sad.. :(
i cant think of the right way to pamper myself.. i dont need to don a new hair cut or even have a mani-pedi. my feet aren't suitable for walking, id rather sit down and blog or later on, sit down and glued my eyes on tv.. dont have the appetite to each much though im craving for some choc ice cream.. or hot sopas since the weather's cold.. but im lazy enough to do that..
dont have the bit of energy to move, even flex, my muscles.. my hands are feeling numb.. im losing my thoughts..
reading book wont help either, it would just make me fall asleep.. sending text messages, uhm, all my free text were consumed already, so every message im sending right now is billable.. and my thumb will feel numb.. ouch!
cant go to the mall coz it's raining, and i dont wanna spend a single centavo.. im on a tight budget.. need to tighten it more since Christmas is coming..
what's a better way to pamper myself? so indecisive of me.. even pampering my own self needs rigorous thinking.. should be doing what i feel like doing right now.. and what could that be? eat. drink. sleep. watch. blog. play. read.
life's full of choices.. why cant it simplify things? why does it need to be complicated?
just forget about pampering.. maybe i just needed to release some of these effin' thoughts that keeps on bugging me.. thru blogging! im done.. done pampering myself..
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