Insect-yora

That term came from a friend.. I sooo like it!


INSECT-yora (mukha na ngang insekto, insekyora pa ang lola!)


My friend texted me few nights ago and asked me if I was okay. He's just wondering what or who made me upset. He just read it on my post in FB that I'm into something bitchy. I just told him someone just ruined my day and I soo hate that person, so I can't help but to post bitchy and mean lines on my wall post. 


That's the other side of me. Im not gonna do that if that person didn't do anything that would make me upset. I can be peaceful. And loving. But once this person gets into my nerves, you should start caring for your own safety. I will fight you. I will crush you. 


As I always say, I can be your NICEST friend but I can be the MEANEST too.. :p


What caused this Im-so-pissed attitude of mine? 


Just like an ordinary girl, a typical high school girl, there are numbered lass on the floor which aren't into my liking. You know the feeling that you already hate her on your first meeting? Even though she's not doing anything to you, you just simply hate her. That's how mean I am. Me and my friend, Apple. That's why we're best of friends. We have the common list of people to hate and to love.


And we're not sorry to tell if you're on our hate list.. I am actually thinking of making our own Burn Book (Mean Girls movie.. :p)


And when Im totally pissed off, I blurted it all out. Just so happen we don't her know her well. We just see her everywhere on the floor. Im fond of making parinig, of making irap. And Im loving it too.. :p


I dont involve myself into personalan.. No naming of names.. Lahat ng patama, in general! Para kung may makabasa man at tamaan man sya.. Pak! Sapul! Sorry na lang.. Swerte nya kung sya yun, malas kung di naman pero naga-assume lang na sya yun.. Feelingera!


I know I might be wasting some of my precious time dealing with those kind of people, but in this dog-eat-dog world, wala dapat palampasin. I might be stepping down on my level but i don't care. I want my voice be heard. I will just let that girl feel who'd she bumped into. And I will make her realize that she just made a mistake knowing me.


This is the bad side of me. But I still have some goodness left. And I only give it to people who deserves better.

X-tra

X-tra o extra: paningit, saling ketket, pamalit, dobol

Sinong gustong maging extra? Taas lang po ang mga kamay..

Kung meron man nagtaas sa inyo, di ko kayo masisisi kung hanggang ngayon pagiging extra pa rin ang gusto nyo.. Pero kung ako ang tatanungin, di ko kailanman nanaisin na maging extra lang. Alam kong ipinanganak ako hindi para maging paningit o maging second best lang. Ako ang bida sa sarili kong istorya. Apir!

Ano na naman ba pumasok sa isip ko at naisip ko ang salitang extra? Ang daming ibig ipakahulugan nito. Daming bagay na pwedeng pagkabitan ng salitang ito. Buhay, trabaho, pagibig.. Lahat ng bagay pwedeng lagyan ng extra.

Buti sana kung ang tinutukoy ko ay yung extra sa mga pelikula. Kasi kahit extra ka lang, bayad ka naman at may exposure ka pa. Sure way to enter showbiz.. Haha..

Pero yung maging extra ka sa buhay, lalo na sa buhay ng iba, sa trabaho at lalo na yung may kinalaman sa buhay pag-ibig.. hay.. ang hirap. Mahaba-habang paliwanagan.

Sabi ko nga, gusto ko ako ang bida sa sarili kong istorya. Pero may mga pagkakataon o sitwasyon na hindi ka muna pwedeng  magbida. Daan ka muna sa pagka-extra. Tulad sa trabaho, di naman na promoted ka agad as manager pag nag-apply ka di ba? Daan ka muna sa pagiging OJT, to rank and file hanggang sa ma-promote ka na sa pinakamataas na position sa company. Everyone needs to start from small beginnings, sabi nga. Marami na tayong narinig na mga successful na tao na nagsimula sa mababa pataas. Mga artistang naging extra hanggang sa tumagal, naging leading man/woman material na. 

Bakit ba kailangan dumaan sa pagka-extra? Di naman tayo biniyayayaan ng Diyos ng katalinuhan para malaman lahat. Meron pa din tayong di alam. Sabi nga, kung alam mo na ang lahat, kakailanganin mo pa ba ang Diyos?

Madali i-explain ang pagiging extra sa araw-araw nating pamumuhay at sa trabaho. Kasi halos lahat tayo pagdaraanan yan. Very much predictable. Cliche na..

Pero paano sa larangan ng pag-ibig? Paano natin ikakabit ang salitang extra? Gusto mo bang maging extra lang lagi sa mga love affairs mo? Paningit. Pamalit. Dobol.

Ang pangit pakinggan at di katanggap-tanggap na extra lang ang kalagayan natin sa puso ng ating mga minamahal. Reserve ba. Pag may kinailangan sya na di maibigay ng mahal nya, andyan ka para punan yun. Panakip butas? Pwede. Nakikiamot ng pag-ibig. Kay lungkot. 

Para kang joker na nagpapasaya sa iyong hari o reyna. Ikaw ang tagapunan ng mga kakulangan. Nakakababa sa paningin ng nakararami pero marami din naman sa atin ang pabor sa ganitong sitwasyon sa kadahilanang mapalapit sa taong minamahal nya. Martir? Pwede. Masokista? Pwede din. Ang sakit isipin na nagagamit tayo para sa kanilang personal na interes. Pero para sa isang nagmamahal, kiber ba.. Basta masaya ka at alam mong napasaya mo sya. Kahit panandalian. Kahit bawal. Kahit di magkakaroon ng katuparan.

May tao man na itinadhana para sa atin, pero bago natin makilala ang taong yun, daraan muna tayo sa pagka-extra sa buhay ng ibang tao. Mamahalin sila na animo'y sya na ang itinadhana pero hindi pala. Tatanggapin lahat ng pintas at kamalian basta matutunan ka lang nila mahalin kahit sa huli, talunan pa rin. 

Ang sakit. Ang hirap i-endure nung pain lalo na pag napamahal na sa iyo ng sobra. Pinakamasakit ang malaman na hindi talaga kayo para sa isa't-isa. Kaya ang kinakahinatnan, hangga't andyan ang pagkakataon, sulitin na. Bahala na kung ano ang hawak ng bukas para sa atin. Bahala na kung anong sakit ang mararamdaman kinabukasan. Basta ngayon, masaya ako, sa piling nya. Masaya kami. Kung di man palarin na maging kami, walang problema sa akin. Tanggap ko na ang mga mangyayari. Mga alaala na lang nya ang sasariwain ko sa araw-araw na naiisip ko sya.

Ngunit di pa rin maitatanggi na sa isang sulok ng isip, lalo na ng puso ko, andun pa rin yung pag-asang sana matutunan nya ako mahalin, kahalintulad ng pagmamahal ko sa kanya. Na sana sya na yung itinadhana para sa akin. Na sana hindi ako extra para sa kanya. Na ako na yung bida sa puso nya at sa love story ko.

pa-extra naman..

This is NOT Me..

I am feeling different today.. I am not at my best.. 

Mood swing attack perhaps.. 

Mood swings can affect many aspects of a person’s life. Mood swings can be frustrating for the person experiencing them, and they can be particularly painful for the family and loved ones around that person. When a person’s mood fluctuates rapidly, friends and family never know which mood they are going to encounter. For the person experiencing the mood swings, they often feel extremely unstable.

I've learned that it is completely normal to experience mood swings. Part of being human is the wide range of emotions that one can experience. However, when mood swings dominate a person’s life, he or she may feel overwhelmed and desire more stability. 

I had my own share of mood swings. And I found them so unhealthy. For it changed me to someone who I am really not. Someone who's tried to defy the things I am most afraid of. 

Most of the time, after I had an attack, it left me drained. I regret having mood swings. Bad mood swings. If only I could turn it the other way around. I want it happy, and alive.

I've realized, at the end of the day, it still boils down on me. On the way I handle it. On the way I carry it whenever I communicate with my family and friends. 

I don't know how long am I gonna endure this. Not so long perhaps. And I never plan to seek any medical help to cure this. I am still sane. In total control of myself. This is not even a disease nor an illness. A disorder could be. But a curable one. I just need to be more positive. Live life on happy thoughts.

You To Me Are Everything

I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to.
I'd do anything for you
your wish is my command

I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand.
Words cannot express how much you mean to me.
There must be some other way to make you see.
If it takes my heart and soul
you know I'd pay the price.
Everything that I possess I'd gladly sacrifice.

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby
Oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby
Oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.
So now you've got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Though you're close to me
we seem so far apart.
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart.
If it takes forever
girl then I'm prepared to wait.
The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late

Oh you to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby
Oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby
Oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.
So now you've got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Oh you to me are everything.
the sweetest song that I could sing.
(Your the sweetest song that I could sing.)
Oh baby (oh baby)
Oh baby (yes I need you baby)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby (you are everything to me)
Oh baby (cant you see)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
(Your the sweetest song that I could sing.)
Oh baby
Oh baby (you're everything)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby
Oh baby (your the sweetest song)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.

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Hay.. Na-LSS ako dito! Ewan ko ba.. I was just busy browsing my playlist, naghahanap ng magandang sounds. Ayoko ng emo at oldies, gusto ko rnb o dance. Pero nung nakita ko sya sa playlist ko, bigla kong sinubukan patugtugin. At yun na! Naaliw ako sa pakikinig..

At maka-ilang beses ko syang pinatugtog.. Naka-set na nga sa repeat one yung itouch ko.. Ito lang ang tinutugtog. Hanggang sa ma-lowbat ang itouch ko.

At habang ginagawa ko itong post ko, kasalukuyan syang tumutugtog. Yay! Adik lang..

Ewan ko talaga. There's something in this song na na-capture yung attention ko.. And I really love this line: ♫♪ So now you've got the best of me, Come on and take the rest of me ♫♪

Parang gusto ko sabihin na: Sige na take everything of me, you've seen the best, why not take the rest? I'm all yours..

Hay.. Landi? Hindi.. In love lang po..

My Buddies

Tested.

Proven.

They are my best friends. 

Celebrating friendship of more than 3 years now and still counting.. 

Dami na namin napagdaanan.. Dami ng gusot at away na nalagpasan. Dami ng tawanan at kulitan na naranasan. Still, magkakaibigang tunay pa rin kami hanggang sa huli.

Nagkahiwa-hiwalay man kami ng landas, di yun naging hadlang para matigil ang aming samahan. Lumayo man ng tirahan, nag-iba ng pinapasukan, nagka-lovelife o iniwanan, di problema yan kung gusto talaga namin na magkasama-sama. At wala pa ring naiba sa aming samahan. Walang aloofness, walang nao-OP, lahat kasali. Bihira man kami magkita-kita ng personal, pero nananatili pa rin ang aming closeness. Salamat at naimbento ang SMS, chat, FB, YM at kung ano-ano pa..

Minsan napag-usapan namin kung kelan kami huling nag-away-away. Sino-sino yung mga nag-away-away at yung mga hindi pa nag-away-away. Madalas maka-away namin yung dalawang lalake. Pareho kasing pasaway. Makukulit. Pero mahal na mahal namin. Mga tagapagtanggol namin lalo na kapag may nasawi sa amin sa pag-ibig. 

Sa aming tatlong babae, walang problema. Mga certified kikay. Mga hopeless romantics. 

Gusto kong silang ilarawan isa-isa. Game na? 

Apple. The bubbly girl from Lipa. Anak ng kapitan. Katulad ko, hopeless romantic. Ayaw kumain ng gulay. Paborito nya ang kare-kare at chupa chups. Small but terrible. Sya ang pinakamaliit pero ang pinakamaldita. Walang palya sa pagsaway sa dalawang lalake kapag nagpapasaway. Kung pwede lang silang saktan, matagal na sana nyang ginawa. Hirap hanapan ng size ng damit, XXXS yata ang size nya. Kikay din. Latest nyang kakikayan, magpa-rebond ng hair. Dami nyang crush sa office (sino ba talaga sa kanila?) pero choosy.

Sharlene. The banker from Antipolo. Katulad namin, hopeless romantic din. Very firm yet soft-hearted. Love na love nya si Honeyapple. Sya ang mediator namin kapag nag-aaway kaming apat (me & Apple vs the two boys), kaya na-miss namin sya ng lubusan nung nag-Cebu kami kasi wala kaming taga-saway. She loves surprises. Fashionista to the max.

Ademar. Ikaw na ang heartthrob! :) Naku, ang kaibigan naming lapitin.. Sya ang aming counselor nung times na sawi kami sa pag-ibig. Mahilig manglibre (ng sapilitan!). Super generous o gullible lang?!? haha..  Malambing (kung di mo sya kilala, pwedeng pagdudahan.. ). Stick to one sa kanyang Sheshe.. :) Corny mag-joke, as in.. Wala sa timing humirit. Kung hindi late pumasok, suki ng NCNS. Sya ang madalas kong maka-away (ilan na ba napag-awayan namin?) pero dahil buddy ko, I just forgive and forget. Sya din ang madalas ko kasama, papasok sa work o pauwi, kasi pareho kaming taga-Nova. Sya ang matyagang nagsi-sync ng iTouch ko at taga-ayos ng PC. 

Warren. Ang pinaka-gullible sa amin.. kaya nga sya si Gullible's travel! Ang Bicolanong gimikero! Kung saan-saan napadpad na gimikan. Pinagkaitan ng kaputian (peace!). Sya ang pinaka-irate naming kaibigan. Hilig mangatwiran! Walang pinipiling kaaway. At ang hilig nya: magmura! Wala yatang sentence na binitawan na walang mura.. Vitamins nya yata yun sa katawan. Pero the best yan pagdating sa pagsasalita ng English, hanep sa accent. Syempre, di pa rin mawawala ang magmura kahit sa lenggwaheng English. Ang laki ng sinusweldo pero ang hirap hiritan ng libre! At kung kailangan nyo ng megaphone, wag ng mag-atubili na sya'y tawagin, instant megaphone yan. Parang kausap nya lahat ng tao sa bus o sa resto o sa building sa sobrang lakas magsalita at tumawa! 

At syempre, ako. Simple lang.. ahaha! Hopeless romantic din. Ako ang madalas na kina-counsel kasi ako ang laging may kumplikadong problema sa larangan ng pag-ibig. Mahilig akong mag-aya sa kanila ng meet ups. Di man ako nakakatext madalas pero lagi ko silang inaalala, lalo sa FB wallpost ko, lagi sila naka-tag. Mas ako yung laging nangangailangan sa kanila kasi minsan umaandar yung kashonghan ko.. :)

So, iyan ang aming mga katangian. Sa mga katangiang iyan ko sila nagustuhan at minahal bilang kaibigan. Friends for keeps. Friends for life. True friends indeed.

Me? Affected?

I am not affected.. 

Really. 

Things and events normally happens beyond our control. Most of the time, they're unplanned. And in the event that something has happened which isn't into our liking, just let it be. It already happened. You can  no longer cry over spilt milk, as the saying goes..

Be grateful that it happened. It is over. Thoughts might still linger in our heads but that is okay. It will soon pass. Eventually, we might be surprised to know that in some point in our life "that" happened.. :)

On a personal level, I just can't believed the fact that it is over. I am not gonna state the exact event. But this one surely just made a huge impact in my life.  I thought I could just be dreaming. Things happened so fast. The next day, it already slipped my mind. As if nothing really happened. There might be some lapses but somehow, it's controllable. 

I thought it would be hard to recover. Recover from embarrassment, guilt and insecurity. But it's only a matter of how I will present myself especially to the person involved. Good thing, nothing has changed. We're still what we are and who we are, regardless if we're all by ourselves or with our other friends. We're able to save of what we had before and looking forward on what we will still be having as time pass us by. 

Happy Birthday BFF ♥

Yay! Birthday ng bff ko.. si chinchan.. :)


Kahit araw-araw kami nagkikita sa office, pero nami-miss ko pa rin sya. Bihira kami makapgkwentuhan kasi magkaiba kami ng oras. Puro text na lang o chat sa FB. Minsan, nagkikita kami sa gym. Pero mabilis lang ang oras. Na-miss ko na yung mga panahon na maghapon kami magkasama, walang uwian, bibili lang kami ng damit sa mall, maliligo sa gym tapos aagahan pumasok sa office para makatulog pa. Na-miss ko na yung mga gala trip namin, sa mall, manood ng sine, kain kung saan-saan tapos sabay namin isha-share sa blog. Magkwekwentuhan tungkol sa lovelife. Sabay magpla-plano ng mga pwedeng puntahan. Dyan kami nagkakasundo. Pareho kami ng hilig pagdating sa galaan, pagkain at goal sa buhay. Gusto namin magtayo ng business someday, gusto namin mag-organize ng events.


Sa kanyang espesyal na araw, ang tanging hiling ko lang ay sana maging happy sya regardless kung anuman ang mga tatahakin nyang pagsubok sa buhay. May God continue to bless him, guide him and keep him safe and healthy. May we have more time to spend together as best friends and able to withstand the test of time.


I ♥ U BFF.. Happy birthday! Thanks for the treat!

The friends that wear shades together, stays together!

We've come to realized na nakakaganda pala ng kuha sa picture pag nakasuot ka ng shades.. :)  Kaya sa bawat picture namin, di pwedeng di nakasuot ng shades!

Skywalk at Crown Regency

This is so far the biggest challenge I've encountered. Facing my fear of heights!


Our last stop: Cebu. Bago umuwi sa Manila. Madaling araw pa ang flight namin,  to kill our time, we've decided na magpunta sa Crown Regency, di para mag-check in, kundi para i-try ang Skywalk. Kahit mejo mahal sya, 550php, inclusive of a shirt, go pa rin kami. 


Bawal magsuot ng accessories, even watch. Kailangan naka-rubber shoes, kung  di ka naka-rubber shoes, meron silang pinapahiram, bibili ka nga lang ng medyas for 20php. 


May konting chikahan with the tour guide and some photo ops sa loob at labas. The challenge is iikutin lang naman ung Crown Regency at magpo-pose para sa picture.


Akala ko madali lang. Kasi may harness naman at guide. Pero iba na yung feeling when you're there. Lalo na nung lumakad ako sa glass floor. OMG. Gusto kong masuka. Halos maubos ang boses sa kakasigaw, para ma-release yung tension, kaba at nerbyos!

Panglao Island

Panglao Island is now the favorite destination of tourists, local and foreign alike. They are lured to Panglao because of the white sand, the cool crystal blue waters, the world-famous surrounding dive sites, and to top it all, the tranquil ambiance of the place.


Panglao Island and the whole province of Bohol have so much to offer. Beautiful natural resources are so diverse and plentiful. A day or two is not enough to fully immerse yourself in its grandeur. It is God’s little paradise; a peaceful hideaway!

 

  

I so love Panglao island.. I so love the beach.. Kahit nadapa ako at nasaktan sa dami ng corals at shells na nakakalat sa shore, pati mga halamang dagat, pero aliw sa ganda ng view at sarap ng hangin. Kahit tirik ang araw, ang sarap humiga sa buhangin, ang lamig sa pakiramdam. Ang linis ng tubig, walang basura. Ang pino ng buhangin. At mas nakapagpasaya pa dito ay yung kasama ko yung mga mahal kong kaibigan at ang nakakaaliw at  walang katigilan nila na maperfect ang jump shot.. :)

Blood Compact Shrine

If Cebuanos take pride of Lapu-lapu who became the first Filipino who fought and killed Ferdinand Magellan who led the first group of Spanish explorers haplessly to the Philippines, the Boholanos also have their very own Datu Sikatuna. He, a native of Bool—a barangay of Tagbilaran City—became the first Filipino ambassador of peace and goodwill.


Probably one of the most important sites in Bohol, the Blood Compact(Sandugo) site is said to be approximate spot where Miguel Lopez de Legazpi and Rajah Sikatuna made a ritual to enter a pact of friendship and end the hostilities between them. It is located at Barangay Bool, a few kilometers from Tagbilaran City. The shrine, with the bronze statues of Miguel Lopez de Legazpi, Rajah Sikatuna and several other witnesses, was created by the national artist Napoleon Abueva. It overlooks the magnificent view of Bohol Sea.

Bohol sea

Bohol Goods

Let me just give you a glimpse of some of Bohol's must-sought delicacies and pasalubong.. For sure, walang nagpunta ng Bohol at nagbabalak pa lang magpunta ng Bohol ang hindi makakatiis bumili ng alin man sa mga goods na ito.

siopao ng Bohol.. sarap!

peanut kisses!

Ang sarap mag-stay sa Bohol. Hindi ka magugutom, ang sasarap pa ng pagkain. Napaka-artistic pa nila. Napamangha talaga ako sa Canned Tarsier. Akala ko nung una totoo yun, nakakaloko ha! Yun pala stuffed toy na tarsier in can. Kaaliw talaga!