I am Sorry

You,


I am sorry. I have caused you pain. So much pain. Unbearable pain. I didn't mean to. 


Sorry for I let this happened to us. It's not supposed to happen in the first place. You're my friend.


I just trusted you enough. And I've created illusions in my mind. I know it's really not gonna happen but the persistent me still insisted on doing so.


I just wanna let you know how much I value our friendship and I am not gonna let anything nor anyone break it. If it would entail me to leave your side to save the friendship, even if it's so against my will, you won't hear anything from me but leave you. I will do everything to not lose you.


I love you as a friend. You're someone special. And I can't see myself without you. Can't figure out what would become of me should you leave my side. So, please don't.


I wouldn't make it hard for you. I will let you decide freely on your own. Let you choose the people you wanted to be with. But please, make me still a part of your life.


I will try to understand everything, even if my mind can't fathom it deeply, as long as it makes you happy. I will try to hide the pain, even if it leaves my heart bleeding, as long as you're with the one you love. 


I will continue to love you, but only in silence. I will take care of you even if you don't need me. 


May this bring me the peace of mind I deserve for causing you this much pain. May you find the happiness you're yearning, even if I may not be part of it.


I'm sorry. I love you friend.


Me