An Open Letter

Hello,

I got hurt. My feelings got hurt.. And I'm still fighting for it. Despite everything, I still long for you, crave for you. Seen what I needed to see, heard what I needed to hear, but my mind and heart doesn't feel anything. They're numb, and loving it..

What am I really to you? A friend, a lover, a coworker or, worst, an enemy.. Why do you have to treat me so badly? Why am I always being deserted by you? What did I do to you for me to deserve this kind of treatment?

I just loved you, with all my heart, mind and soul.. Why can't you reciprocate it? What's keeping you to do it? What have I done wrong?

I gave you all you wanted, needed, still, you're wanting for more.. I'm trying to be perfect for you, if not, perfect the imperfect me.. Be considerate with my feelings..

Allowing you to do such things you wanted doesn't mean that I have no care for you. I just want you to live freely. Do all the stuffs you needed to do, but at the end of the day, make sure you know where your heart truly lies.. My arms are waiting ,wide-opened, should you need a hug, comfort, shelter, peace and love.

May you somehow realize as you go through life how important you are to me. That no matter what could happen to you, I will always be right here, waiting, longing and loving. I will pray that you'll be guided accordingly and hope you choose the right path.

For now, I will let you wander like a little child in a world full of imagination and surprises. Be free spirited. Explore in the world of make believe. This would somehow prepare you to be ready when you are about to enter the world of reality, with me, with love, peace and happiness.

I love you still..